Tuesday, September 29, 2009

BREAKTHROUGH!

I'm so proud of myself! I can actually see myself growing and maturing. And letting go of some of my negative -isms.

I know I have a control issue... and a "have to know" issue. And they're tied to a trust issue that stems from past hurts and disappointments. They say knowing is half the battle so I'm on my way. Probably even a step better than that.

This weekend I stepped out on faith. I let things go. I didn't do... anything. I just trusted. It was really hard. I can't tell you the number of times I looked at my phone, how many questions went through my mind. But I know that ultimately I'm not in control anyway. God is. And He's never let me down. And He always takes care of me, better than I could ever do for myself.

So now I'm in uncharted waters. I kind of don't know what to do now. I usually do something: make a call, ask a question, send a text. But at this point, I can't really do anything. I don't want to mess anything up. I know God's got it. And as uncomfortable as it may feel at times, I just have to work on letting go so I can watch Him work. I can do this. I sort of have to. It's the way the best things have always happened for me.

Give it to God and let it go!

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